thank you God.

I am really thankful & grateful to God because in 1 month period, i got 2 of my biggest wish came true.

1st: i got to go to Korea.

2nd: i got to watch the Wonder Girls live in front of my very own eyes.

and now,i couldnt sleep.

instead of thinking about how happy I am that i got to meet the Wonder Girls,

i suddenly thought of you.

yes you.

you who i didnt even get the chance to ask what is your name.

the guy who said 안녕하세요 to me on the bus.

the guy who asked me whether it is okay to ask questions (because you are so curious about it).

you who asked me about my religion and my hijab.

you who made me choked on my kimbab because i was too nervous to answer your question.

you who bowed down everytime you see me in the building(dorm).

you, the guy who realized that i sometimes stole glances at.(because i seriously want to keep staring at you).

you are not good looking.

but i am still moved by your actions.

i wish i know your name.

i dont know if you even remember me.

or if you secretly talk bad about me.

just know that, you had me at 안녕하세요.

p.s: my korean friends are now signing up for FB account one by one. there’s only a few of them who havent signed up yet. all i could think of when i saw my korean friends signing up is that, “i wish i could ask them what is his name”. but im too shy to do that. yes, i am far far far away from the guy i have interest on, and yet i am still too shy to find out his name.

Thank you GOD for making all of these possible.

and it feels like insomnia~~

yes,i have trouble sleeping at night.i had not sleep for more than 28 hours when writing this. i’m not sure when was the last time i get to sleep at night, without feeling guilty for sleeping.yes,i’m weird like that.and so i end this post with a two yes. yes yes.

kind.you.

your love suffocates me.

because i’m selfish…

“even if i forget you,

dont ever forget me”

” i hate that i’m starting to get tired of you

even today i’m smiling,

but secretly i’m losing faith.”

taeyang’s only look at me.

How Have Yubin?

lol.forgive me for the title.but it’s from Oh Boy’s magazine Yubin was on.

There’s a lot of reasons why i love this girl, and being able to pull off a sexy look with a simple tshirt is one of it.=)

love her “i’m the boss,that’s why” t-shirt.

sorry bout the pic.click on the image for bigger size.

…and we yell and scream…

i had a dream a week ago…

in that dream, i was at an event, together with my besties.

i cant seem to remember who my besties were in that dream, but they were my besties.

during the event, we had to rush somewhere, and at that moment, i laid my eyes on you and i froze.

all i could think of is “run!” and i did run. i run as fast as i can, careful not to be seen by you, and my friends follow suit, not knowing what happened. they just run with me.

we went into an elevator and before the door shuts, there you were, in front of me, with your friends. you looked surprised, but that was expected.

our friends knews each other so they greet each other, but we, we could only stand there, staring at each other, you; wishing i could die right in front of you, and me; wishing i die right in front of you.

and there was moments of awkwardness. and the elevator got stuck.

and nobody dared to speak. i felt my face hot with stares from our friends.

dying to know what happened.

you broke the silence. but you start attacking me.

“havent heard from you for a long time. are you that busy?”

“yes, i am busy.” *silence*

“not even a text?”

” i was busy.”

“was.”

“what do you want from me?”

and the war starts.

and i yell, screamed.

your expression was the expression of betrayal, hate, dissapointment.

i was protecting myself.

not knowing i could hurt anyone in the process, i did.

i hurt you.

i am sorry i hurt you.

but those words are just unspoken words.

all inside my minds.

in this heated bickering, i could hear somebody calling my name.

“cha!!! cha!!!”

it was my father.yes, he just disturbed my emotional dream.

but in a sense, he actually saved me from that yelling and me screaming my lungs out.

that was all a dream.

but i wonder.

do you feel the same in reality?

i’m sorry i’m not good in relationships.

i’m just not ready.

there will be a day when i will be ready for it.

but i dont think its you.

Family Outing 2 – WG+Heechul – My POV

Okay.lets be honest here.

Fo2 ratings has always been down, and to save the show, the Fo2 Pd just had to use the chance when the precious Wonder Girls are back in kpop scene, and to add to the flavor,  they add Heechul, WG’s most known celebrity fan and JoKwon’s future best friend. But that’s not it, for that particular episode, Jang Dong Min is going to make his debut as family’s official guest. (i guess they use the term guest cos there is enough family members now?lol). This is a sure winning recipe for that episode, but whether they are going to continue their momentum on the next episode, we’ll see.

Things to look out for:

1. For those of you who did not watch Jang Dong Min’s episode with Wonder Girl on Suju’s Idol Show, then you might not know that Jang Dong Min confessed to YeEun at that time, dancing to TaeYang’s Only Look at Me, something he must had done a research on, cos Yeeun is a big fan of Taeyang.

2. Heechul’s interaction with Sohee, and how the chic Sohee will interact with him. =)

3. Yoona + Wonder Girls interaction.

They are known as the 2 rivals of kpop scene, but SNSD-WG have always have a good relationship. Taeyeon+Yoobin are besties, but i’m interested to see how yoona will interact with the girls.

4. JoKwon+Sunye

Needless to say, this will be a fun + tearjearking moments. They are best friends that have gone through so many hardships during their trainee period. Even if they did not let it out, they both know what is in their hearts. Love the part where Kwon says, “sunye, i love you”. <3

5. Lim + WG + fo2 crews

this will be Lim’s debut in variety shows. I think Lim have a lot to show to the fans and to non-fans as well, because i think Lim is a fun girl to be around with. She is just not used to the camera just yet. But this girl, i like her. So i cant wait for her debut.

6. Yoobin+Taec

This coco couple will be the ones to look out for for taecbin shippers, but then again, even though Taec did carry Binnie in the preview, which i guess was the reenactment of Cinderella’s Sister, (taec carried MoonGeunYoung) and they are “just friends” (according to Binnie) in their live chat, but i’m not sure if there are other interactions other than that. We love you taec,(being with yoobin) but i wont get my hopes too high cos i know that in that episode, Taec gave yoona a perfume, and towards the last scene,where taec kinda strip, and did Rain’s love song to confess, i dont think the girl is yoobin,it looks like he’s heading towards sohee, but then the guy in the vid keeps screaming “its yoona its yoona its yoona”.Whatever it is,taec and yoobin would make a hot couple. but i bet seulong is screaming with jealousy at home.

7.yoobin+yoon sang hyun

yoon sang hyun, the actor, reveals he’s a fan of yoobin, but i did not really get to see him in the preview. but it’s interesting to see how it will play out. he deserves much more attention really. hope this will get him more attention.

with all that said, cant wait for that episode of fo2. =)

now, all we need is for the girls to record 2days 1 night.then i’d die happy.

18 hari…….

ya…sementara kami sedang bertungkus lumus menyiapkan contempt lit, sy tersedar akan sesuatu perkara…18 hari lagi nk final…2 minggu 4 hari lagi….tu je..heheheee

tp esok kena anta 2 assignment.

satu: sociolingo yg x sentuh g.yes.yg 8 page with reference from books tuh…yg books tu kitorang x pnjam lgsung tuh..ya,tu anta esk ye kengkawan…eh, i mean today, nnti..beberapa jam g..

dua: contemp lit yg perlu dihantar kepada pana.sebenarnya kna anta td,tp cam x lengkap je..so nnti anta la..tu cam sket g.amiin.

bukan assignment, tp cam assignment:

lesson plan + microteaching: ya esk!!! tp x buat g..hahahahaa

my dream vs education

people wonder why am i so obsessed with korea, KLC, and all.

the answer is its my dream.

i am the type of person who would chase her dream even though it seems so far away.

i am the type of person who will not give up halfway and even though im not sure of it, i still tell myself that i can do this.

that is my dream. that is why i am trying my best to be great at it. not just good at it.

but TESL,. is not my dream. I like English, i like Teaching, but honestly, im not cut out for that.  I imagine my future running around, always busy, but still lovin what i do.

I chase my dream before. I became a barista. and the feeling of fixing up a perfect cup of cappucino is just rewarding. i can see the smiles of the customers satisfied with their coffee. that is just….no words can describe it.

i have work in a grocery shop before and a day at a hotel, serving people. those are the jobs that i am not really into i guess. i always ended up looking at my watch, wondering when can i go home.

after i graduate, i think im gonna work in a travel agency. yes, maybe. i wanna travel all around the world until i get bored.=)

secret…not really….

there are things that i choose to tell, and there are things that i just keep to myself. i think its easier to keep things to myself than to tell others.

i was told an awesome news the other day, but i only told the news to a few people. Hajar is the first person cos she happens to be there, my Ma, Ayoh, Nen, and Mizah (and faffy who happens to be there why i told mizah). So yeah, its only 5 people who knows. I hope so.Havent told others yet. but no sure who to break it to them cos even right now, it seems surreal. I’m the type of person who thinks its better to be sure of things before spreading the news.

So friends, its not that i dont want to tell you,.but i’ll tell it when im ready enuff so that whatever happens (hopefully nothing bad happens) i would still be in the calm state.