sometimes i prefer strangers than friends.
why? cos when strangers lied to you, you wont really feel a thing.
but with friends, you’ll feel betrayed.hurt.no more trust.
next time, jangan perasan ok?
yes, i’m pissed off.
hey stranger,thank you.
there’s no other meaning than that.
it’s just a simple straight-from-the-heart-thank-you.
So,thank you.
my things to do for 26/1/10 and the deadline = today.
KLC
KLCning
KLC Facebook group
KLC stuff to HEP
KLC senarai nama ajk
borang perancangan aktiviti pelajar
borang pengesahan penghantaran aktiviti pelajar
ringkasan permohonan aktiviti pelajar
Sociolinguistic
finish reading the topic assigned to me
slideshow
references
books
Creative writing
poem bout death (which unfortunately, i didnt remember what sir hady wanted)
3 CREATIVE journal entry
YES.so many things,so lil time.
and i cant skip class cos i have korean class @ 12 at main campus.
then class till Maghrib (kot) i forgot the schedule, then discussion with Pana n Nen, then meeting with KLC committee..no no, i am not stressed.i’m just..dying.
semua benda berlaku dengan sebab.
*direct translation of “everything happens for a reason” *
semua nya ketentuan Illahi.
kita hanya mampu merancang, hanya Tuhan yang menentukan.
tapi itu tidak bermakna kita hanya perlu duduk menanti bulan jatuh ke riba.
kita perlu berusaha, bertawakal, dan kemudian barulah berserah.
sebelum ini, saya ingat dengan usaha,kita boleh dapat semua yang kita ingin kan.
kita cuma perlu berusaha.
saya lebih suka ayat “work hard” daripada “work smart”
tapi itulah kelemahan saya.
kelemahan paling besar.
ayah saya suka tegur saya, “kita ni, belajar kena cara bijak, jangan belajar rajin, tapi cara nya salah..method dia kena betul.belajar la rajin mana pun, kalu x kena cara nya, x menjadi tu…”
bukan ayah saya je yang tegur.
bos pun nak tegur! hampehs! rakan sekerja sekali..
“you know what Nisa ah…you have to work smart you know..you work hard hard all day aaaa..i cannot look at you..i pity you..you ask the junior staff la do all the work..these stuff aaa..you are senior staff you know??aiyaaa..tell them to do all these work la..look at me..they do what i tell them maaaa..”
ya lah tu Alan..
saya minat kopi.jadi saya kerja jadi barista di Coffee Bean.tapi dah tau cara buat kopi tu cukup la.dah!bergerak ke destinasi lain pulak.
itu adalah contoh sy “work hard”..
sem depan, saya mau “work smart”..
mungkin kah berjaya?mungkin…
saya dah berhenti kerja..mungkin saya perlu kurangkan obses dgn K-pop.
tapi tanpa K-pop,siapa lah Khairunnisaa.
*mengeluh x berhenti*
masih lagi saya ingat mengenai kes scholarship ke korea tu.
ya..saya x dpt.
ada pelajar lain yang dapat.
sedih,memang sedih..
tapi, Michelle pun dapat..jadi x sedih sgt la..
bila saya tgk kes Michelle, rase cam xleh putus asa lagi.
Michelle spatutnya pergi dgn Naim ke Youth Camp di Korea sem lepas, tapi Dean x bg.
Youth Camp tu dalam 2minggu punya program kot.
tapi bila terlepas satu peluang, dia dapat peluang yang lain.
dia dapat Scholarship tu.jadi dia akan belajar di Korea selama 1 semester, dan akan dibiayai oleh Chungnam University.
jadi, ini semua ketentuan Illahi.
saya yakin, suatu hari nanti, saya akan dapat giliran saya..Amiiin.
yes, to “commemorate” my bad result for this semester, i mean last semester.. eh last semester ke??ah, watever la kan..result for part4 la kan..i decided to write!!yes! something that i’ve been longing to do,but kept delaying it..i have exactly one month to do it, so better do it now than not to do it at all..
i’m expecting to get a writer’s block and will be in a “darkness” for a while, but that will get my mind of the results for a while..hmmm, how do i break the news regarding my bad exam results to my parents anyway?*sigh* i think i should just go home and enjoy life for a while, and when my parents ask me about it, i’ll tell them..or when i’m about to depart from KT to SA again..how about THAT?! hehe..so,a good luck wish to myself for getting so optimistic about life, for once in my life.i deserve to be optimistic rite?say yes to the optimistic KHAIRUNNISAA!!hohohooooo..
smalam mimpi..pelik.aneh.ajaib?tak!
hmmm..i never really vividly remember the dreams that i had, so i can just tell you the gist of it..
well, at first i met this guy.he’s nice.we become friends.he asked me to marry him.
i said yes.bla bla bla…typical huh?
well, on the wedding day, i realised i’m not really in love with him.i just think he’s nice.
i looked at my father.my father looked at me.
then i thought to myself..”takleh! i dont love him.. i’m not willing to spend the rest of my life being love and not being able to love back.but, if i get a divorce now, i’ll be a janda.status janda….dan akan mengecewakan family..smua sebab keputusan bodoh tu”
then, a guy appeared in front of me.
i looked at that guy…
i stared at him…
“i wish to spend the rest of my life with you”
i said to myself.
but it’s too late.
the guy smiled at me.
i almost cried when the guy i’m married to appeared in front of me.
i faked a smile.
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aneh.pelik.
mungkinkah akan terjadi di masa depan? x nak!!
pengajaran:
basuh la kaki sebelum tido…
pengajaran ke 2:
never marry a guy because he’s nice.marry him because you love him.
aku seperti hujan.
bila panas, kamu cari.
bila musim tengkujuh, kamu jadi bosan.
kamu suka aku.
tapi, kamu rasa aku tak penting.
mungkin penting.
tapi tak sepenting awan yang melindungi kamu dikala panas.
persahabatan.adakah persahabatan begitu?
aku sedih.
bukan kecewa.
tapi sedih.
aku perlukan masa.
bukan kemaafan.
bukan untuk memaafkan.
sebab aku tak marah.
aku hanya sedih.
mungkinkah esok akan hujan?
i work for a total of 12 hours that day, and i must say, it is very tiring and it is very different from F&B line. because in F&B, you can actually take your time to mingle with the customers, ask them how they are doing and all, but when you are working to serve food to hotel guests, you have to always calculate in your head when to serve the food, when to take it away, how to satisfy the guests, balance yourself, control your emotion as well as your expression, all that in very limited time.
it is hard. very hard. i made few mistakes here and there. but..surprisingly, it is fun.
i want to do it again. i want to work with the staffs (hundreds of them) again.
it is ironic that when i made mistakes at the left area, there would be staffs on the left area scolding me and the right area would calm me down. but they didnt really scold me, i mean, at least they are nicer to me than to guys who made mistakes. i guess sometimes being a girl have its advantages.
there, i meet very cool and calm UiTM students. a total of 40+ students working part-time at that event, and all seem very relax, like i said, “cool and calm”. me? i was nervous the whole 12hours.my hands cant stop trembling and my heart beats fast.i wasnt sure what i was doing there. i even thought of bailing out. a few times actually. but thank God i didnt do that.
i met a lot of interesting people that day. the managers there are so funny. they crack so many jokes but i couldnt remember any of it.
there’s one incident when the manager is trying to delegate the work to staffs and when he tried to count the number of staffs;
“korang duk diam2 boleh tak??nk bercakap x pe, tp kepala tu kna statik ya? bru je nk kira ni..1…2…hah..kan dh cakap~tu lah kepala macam lalang ni..xde angin pun ni…korang menjerit pun sy x kisah, korang jangan bergeraaaak je..jangan bergerak tau?tau??”
i was so nervous that day, i didnt have a chance to take a proper look at the bride and the groom, but i remember that the groom looks so very in love with the bride. they have this spark…love..ah, how i envy them.
after the wedding ceremony had finished, the managers called us out for a briefing. a manager came in and said;
“ah!!! marah nya saya! saya x penah marah cam ni tau? marah sangat2 ni…marah…….
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hmmm..makanan katne ek?”
everybody laughs. he went and took a box. the box is one of the gift that the bride and groom prepared for the guests. the chocolate box contains with 2 heart-shaped chocolate.he went and took one.put it into his mouth.
he looked at the crowd. and turned to me. he took my hand and give it to me.
and every girl there sighed out loud. i seriously am clueless. should i eat it?
and a girl i knew from the event said, “makan je!buka mulut, telan!”
i obeyed her. wah…chocolate from wedding event. XD
there are vacancies for other events as well, but i’m taking the event at sunway again..cos i just love that place!
ah, and
hotel food for the workers = delicious!
hotel food for the wedding event = double delicious!
free hotel food = extra delish to the max!
and i love sunway’s uniform..i look like a worker from a chinese restaurant wearing that.a malay worker that is..
never ever by ciara.
God. i love that song. why? cos it’s sooo true.
Never Ever Lyrics
(Polow da Don)
Throw yo’ hands up in the air
If ya know he love ya
Tell the DJ play this song right here
If ya know he love ya
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
It don’t matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love yaCiara
If that boy don’t love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don’t love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love youI know you think that I just be trippin’ on ya
Boy you see, this ain’t how I normally be
But I can’t help this jealousy
Ooh it’s taking over me, ooh I’m falling way to deep
Without you by my side I feel like I can’t eat or sleepBut I, gotta come down to earth, I don’t wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain’t meant to be
That’s why I tell myselfIf that boy don’t love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don’t love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love youBaby, I can’t help but fantasize
Wondering what it might be like
You and I sound so right
But I’mma let it go tonight, Ain’t nothin’
Coverin’ my eyes
Ain’t gotta see it more than twice
I get it, I got it
Baby, babyBut I, gotta come down to earth, I don’t wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain’t meant to be
That’s why I tell myselfIf that boy don’t love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don’t love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
(Girl you better listen)Young Jeezy
Alright, alright, alright, okay…
I see ya point, I must admit
I grind, I grind, I grind all day
This paper’s what I’m trynna get
Now normally when I’m paper chasing, I be having tunnel vision
And if it’s really like that lady, just turn on ya television
And there go Young, I said there go Young, you trynna get it did
Just know I gets it done, she love the I cheat
She love the way I move, I sho, I show up to her
Shows wit bout 100 goons
Its black this, black that
Black card, black flags
I really hope that’s money that ya’ll got off in them black bags (ha ha)
808’s & heartbreak,
State troopers & interstates,
Giving me a bad vibe,
Guess I’m just a bad guyCiara
Throw yo’ hands up in the air
If ya know he love ya
Tell the DJ play this song right here
If ya know he love ya
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
It don’t matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love ya
saya x faham manusia.
mungkin manusia lain pun x faham saya.
berubahkah saya?
semestinya.
luaran?
sikit je la..gigi besi dah buang..hehe..
mata lagi tmbah power…nnti kalu rajin, bru pakai contact lens..
gemuk?
of course.
selain dari tu?
ntah la..
tudung?
slalu on…dulu tudung kecik2..skrg saiz medium..nnti2 saiz large kot..Amiiin..
tp….knapakah kenalan2 saya di skolah dulu, yg pakai tudung besar,tiba2 x pkai tudung langsung?
saya pun xfaham..
xpelah..nnti dia jawab la tu..
bukan dgn sy..
tp denganNya.
